This is the end. end of school end of us. i tried to coincide with your emotions towards everything i tried to be considerate. i tried to forget, but i guess thats just not enough, now is it. its just that, whenever i see the face of my own starstriken past lover i grow in sighs and hide the face of the person that seems so lone and show the face of a person thats joyful and full of smiles. but inside the truth is im dying with the pain of knowing that we left things off unconsiderably horrid.

i dream every night that you'll just be my knight and shining armour, just in time to save the day. Take me to the castle far far away.

i dream of your corky smile. i dream of your unforgettable laugh and i just cant get out of my mind your mystic eyes that haunt my seen dreams. i dreamt of when you get so frustrated by one single blow of your whistle and i give you once again that corky smile upon your face when i whisper in your ear that i love you.

its okay that you dont love me back coz the truth is that i really dont mind anymore coz now that i realize how much pain you gave me even when we were together. and u say that im not the only one who cried over this situation. i dont care if you cry and i dont care if you get hurt by the words im saying right now because you kno what im forgetting about you day by day..

coz u wana kno sumthing i cried for you for too long now.

im tired of crying myself every night for you.

im tired of looking like crap in the morning coz i cant go 2 sleep just thinkn bot you.

and im sure and tired of you acting like it was all my fault to begin with!

coz you wanna kno the truth... It was all your fault!

i carefully contemplate feelings that you gave me inside i carfully contemplate the raw emotions that you stole upon my sight.

as one of my friends said before as we think of our past. think of our wonderful memories that weve shared. you just want to forget right? but then is only later on that we realize that the special and precious moments we’ve had with that person were only stolen moments in time…

i carefully evaluate that movie one last time. it was the perfect ending. just to think that we would never end up that way makes it even more harder to beare. just the sight of my first glimpse for you is the sight that i have been yearning to see but nowadays what i see through these blinded eyes of mine is what i cant even tolerate. and with that all i can say now is, Goodbye!

Devestation rocks my world!

And as i say goodbye to you one last tiem i just want to tell you that i love you. i love you but i stop myself from temptation. you want to know why? im tired of the devestation you give me. even if you gave me pure joy once i cannot feel that again without hurting but then i think to myself that is what love is really. The pure sacrifice of one another to devote their lives completly to that same person you give your heart to each day. "They say that if we truly love the person, we set them free. Perhaps that is also why they say that love is a sacrifice. It’s not the sacrifice of giving the person you love your whole world but rather the sacrifice of letting your heart bleed, ripped and shredded to pieces just so that you could see the one you love happy."[yanna] 

 i wish to be in love again, but im not doing to well in that department.

So for the last time ill tell you "Goodbye, i love you."