generating the theory that everything ends up as a happily ever after.

generating the thought that behind that golden gate their is a knight who will save you.

generating the buzz that we were meant for each other.

when i think of it... we were very inconsiderate and very subtle of each others feelings. we only really took into account our own emotions bottled up inside. i never put myself into your shoes, to see what you were feeling. Now that i contemplate my own feelings and yours, i believe that it was for the better. Even if our hearts are still being teared up inside with the mier words being uddered at this very moment, we have to be strong and be aware that this is for the better. Better you and better me. we never really made a good couple -i guess- but i belive that we did make good friends. Or i wonder was that just a front to show that you care. Care about me? Was that just another fake smile to ones face.

i teared my heart up for you, just the way you teared that card up. ripped into little peices and threw it all away. Ive bleed for you, i spilled my heart for you, i became what i absolutley hate just to be close to you. And now i find out that it was just all a waste of time,blood, TEARS. im done crying, and im ready to let go. let go of you, let go of our memories. even if it is so hard to do. ill do it for you. for us to be free from one another.

i pray to the Lord each night and say to him, "Lord i pray that we'll some how be friends, somehow forget every last memory we shared together and start over with a clean slate. I pray to you father that he'll forget all about me, so it will just make the pain leave my soul. i pray for my heart to be numb, so i will not feel the pain blistering inside." I pray for reconciliation.

you left a tattoo in my heart, yes. But that tattoo can always be removed, but then there will be scars. the scars remind me that the past is real and i tear my heart open just to feel.

I hoped that you will continuously hurt me, in some way or another, so i'll hate you even more. But i dont hold grudges i just hold on to you, or at least i held on to you. you and your memories will be with me always, live inside but soon it will die with the sweat sin of oblivion passing.

i dont care anymore whose fault it was, whose to blame, and who should the finger be pointed at. All i care about now is for us to be friends and for you to forgive me for everything i have done because i certainly have forgiven you for every minor and major offense held against me.

Now i say to myself if you don't forgive and forget, as you said, then it was just pointless. if you cant forgive me then dont. if you dont want to become friends, we wont. i just wasnt to spill my heart out to you one last time.

As i said "till the day i die, i spill my heart for you. im not going to kill myself or anything. im just putting to sleep a past life, a life with you and me together coz that is really over.

you told me  once that you would never give up on things that make you smile, so i guess i will never make you smile. Through better and through worst i'm still here waiting, waiting for you just to day the word that you want to reconcile, i'll just wait for that day to come.

Some fairy tales do end up in a happily ever after, just because ours didn't doesn't mean that we should give up on finding one.

I will have a knight in shining armour in the end, to bad it wasnt you.

maybe we thought that we were meant for each other, but we're still young and we have so many more opportunities for our hearts to be shreed into peices over and over again. "good luck searching!" 

hope you have a good life, i know i will.